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Journal Entry: Wed Mar 18, 2015, 2:59 PM
I've missed you.

I hope I haven't been missed around here too much. I really do.

I've changed, but not much. I've found time for good things, and my interests have changed little. I've been so incredibly obsessed with classic movies.

I'm growing up. Linda says I'm mature and wise for my age, but I'm not so sure.

I'm making dear friends that will be with me throughout life.

I think I might even be falling in love... but I fear even typing the words, for even now they make me sick to my stomach with anxiety. Still, he is wonderful, he is certainly my friend, and I'm smitten.

I've also made important discoveries. Among them: Old habits die terribly, terribly hard. Everything in life comes down to perspective. And people make light the word "love."

Make of these what you will. I did.

I don't know if I will return. I would like to say I will, but nothing is certain.

~ Marissa <3 "TWD"

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  • Mood: Yearning
  • Listening to: Judy at Carnegie Hall
  • Reading: very little
  • Watching: Thousands Cheer
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It was not into my ear you whispered, but my heart

Journal Entry: Thu Dec 18, 2014, 11:48 AM
"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.  It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."

A legend of legends died.

It is unfair of me to speak of this now, nearly 45 years after the fact.  Who am I, just a young girl admiring the past, to be worthy of giving praise to someone who deserved so much more than she got?

I often find myself wondering now about the people who got to meet her.  The walked up to Frances Ethel Gumm and spoke to her, perhaps adoringly, perhaps in reverential awe, and never even really knew her name.

They knew her by another name, you see.  They knew Judy Garland.

Never in my life have I been so saddened by the death of a great actress, even though it occurred long before I existed.  The terrible price that Judy paid for her talent was not just her death, but her life.  She spent her life on an MGM lot and, while that has immortalized her and her voice on the screen forever, she suffered greatly for it.

I have never before seen someone taken down by insecurity like Judy Garland.  It was what affected her all throughout her career; she never saw her own beauty, inside or out.  She never saw her talent at it's true value, and others merely seeing it could not convince her of the sheer vastness of it.  It's so sad for me to watch her movies and musicals, admire her singing and dancing and pure love for acting, and then read about what was happening during the filming.  On one film, The Pirate, she didn't show up for 99 of the 135 days of filming because of how sick she was around that time. 

I don't know why I've chosen to write about her now.  Thinking of her life's story just depresses me so... I've been humming some of her most famous tunes for the past couple days, and it's just awful to think of what a life and talent was wasted. 

If you "young 'uns" don't know to whom I'm referring, I'll absolutely refute that statement.  You know exactly who I'm talking about: this is the famous Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz.  Yes, she went on to be a great legend, and it's sad that today's generation doesn't even recognize it.  I didn't until a very short time ago, myself.

I'm sorry that I speak so much of Judy out of the blue, but she's come to be my favorite actress.  Her quirks are becoming familiar to me, from her amusing arched eyebrow to the way she held her hands when she danced without a partner.  The quote above?  It is hers.  She wrote quite a bit of poetry before she died at the age of 49.  She had so much depth and so much passion for what she did.  How can that be so easily forgotten?

I wish I could have met her if only to tell her how beautiful she really was, even if that could only give her one more moment of life.

I hope to meet you soon, when the earth is transformed... I'll be waiting for you with a big yellow tulip and a big red rose.

~Marissa :heart:

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  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: When You Wore A Tulip
  • Reading: re-reading The Mistborn trilogy
  • Watching: old movies


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LivelovelifeEleni Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Marissa my sis I miss u bbg goin to college this year holy smokes were growin up so fast I love u take care <33 sis wish u all the best. And hope we are lucky to find love see u bbg someday I hope!
PinkPrincessAryanna Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Great Gallery!! X3
BOBBOBISON Featured By Owner May 26, 2015   Digital Artist
Hello! How are ya doin?
LivelovelifeEleni Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm glad someone else loves learning languages and gets obsessed about stuff and is a minimalist high five. Miss You wishin you all the best★♡☆
ElderxChildx6 Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
<.< .......... >.> ..........*Sneaks up behind her and pokes her*
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